"Art is the creative expression of the human spirit, and it cannot- it must not, for the sake of the human community- be limited to those few who achieve critical acclaim or financial reward." -Pat Schneider
Sunday, September 26, 2021
Prompt #68: Flashbulb Memories
Wednesday, September 15, 2021
Priorities
Response to #67: Opening Lines
Who doesn't know what I'm talkin' about?
Who's never left home, whose never struck out
To find a dream and a life of their own...
-The Chicks
Monday, September 6, 2021
Fault Lines
Response to Prompt #67
Fault Lines
I.
I was in charge of the prompt this time around, and I proposed the idea of using the first line of a song to get started on a piece of writing. I was fairly certain a line would jump out at me, and I’d be off and running.
It wasn’t happening.
By Saturday morning of this Labor Day weekend, weeks after initiating the idea, I had decided just to choose something and work with it. I wasn’t totally satisfied with the approach, but I knew I could make it work.
Late morning found me meeting up with my friend Annmarie at an art exhibit and then having lunch together. Annmarie has a new position and has worked very hard on getting her health back after a tough time period. We had a long discussion about all aspects of what makes health and wellbeing. As usual, I enjoyed her company immensely.
Yet when I left I felt uneasy, and I didn’t know why. I knew it didn’t have to do with our different directions in life – I am where I am purposefully and gladly. Still something didn’t feel quite right.
I was driving down MacGregor Boulevard listening to Tom Petty Radio, pondering this tired and distracted feeling. Marty Stuart was being a guest DJ and was playing some of his favorite Petty songs. He ended the show with his version of “Fault Lines,” which was on Tom Petty’s 2014 album Hypnotic Eye.
As soon as the song came on and I heard the opening lines, I knew I had my prompt:
See those fault lines
Lay down like land mines
It’s hard to relax
Now I just had to figure out what it meant.
II.
The idea of fault lines kept drifting through my mind on Sunday. I looked up definitions and images. I couldn’t quite make it personal. I mostly was thinking about the fault lines I see in our democracy, but I knew I didn’t want to write about that. I knew this still uncertain feeling was signaling something, but I just didn’t know what.
That day I noticed on Good Reads that a friend of mine listed that she was reading Amy Poehler’s book Yes, Please. I read it back in 2015, and was so inspired by one section in her book that I wrote a blog post about it. This post, called “Career as Chocolate Cake for Breakfast” has been one I’ve revisited many times. I thought, hmmm, maybe I’ll share my post with Susan.
But when I read it, it felt rather foreign to me. Almost unrelatable. Even a little embarrassing. And I had no idea why. I thought to myself, This blog post always has inspired me. Why is it making me feel weird?
I since have figured it out. It was revealing my fault lines.
III.
Late Sunday afternoon, I had a moment when everything became clear. Once again, I have shifted myself into doing too many things that don’t matter, and not enough of what does. Over a glass of wine and some serious journaling, I made note of the things I just don’t have time for anymore, with the idea of opening up time for my creativity. It felt great to make this start.
Monday morning I revisited the ideas I had written the night before, and I reflected on “Career as Chocolate Cake for Breakfast.” The post had detailed how I switched to middle school to have more time for my creative life. It explained how my creativity was to be my priority from here on out.
This was the fault line. I wasn’t doing it. And I wasn’t relaxing into the way things were because I could sense it was like a landmine – one that could blow up on me if I didn’t reset.
There have been many times in my life I have done the same thing, and have had to turn things around, make adjustments, and take a new direction. I am not sure why I create these fault lines around me, only to have to have to fix them, but I do. I guess it is because I am a dabbler and I try lots of new things.
But in this case, my writing life has suffered. I’ve known for a long time it was suffering, and I’ve made some minor adjustments. But it wasn’t enough to make room for real creativity. I just have not focused enough on making where the true problem lie.
This is why my time with Annmarie prompted this change. She had taken charge of what she needed – her wellness – and it was serving her. I sensed it and knew that there was something I, too, needed to address.
IV.
As I mentioned earlier, on Saturday morning I had found some opening lyrics I was going to use. They were from a song called “You and Me Now” by the Record Company.
Sun beaming through the door
I’m lying on the floor
These words remind me that I need to keep in touch with the
light inside me --the creative force-- and I need to stay grounded enough in my
practice to recognize when I’m opening a new fault line. The chorus of this particular song is All we have is now. Everything I do in the present needs to serve me.
My aim is to hang on to this truth as long as I can, move forward on my creative life, be patient with myself as I make the right changes, and mostly, enjoy the journey 100%.
Blog Post "Career as Chocolate Cake for Breakfast" https://helen5questions.wordpress.com/2015/06/04/155-career-as-chocolate-cake-for-breakfast/
Friday, September 3, 2021
That's Life
"Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, that's life." The Verve
I haven't heard this song in a while, but when it came on the radio on my way to the gym, I knew it was my inspiration. It's one of those go-to songs for me, something that always resonates no matter my mood or current situation. The lines in italics are taken from the lyrics.
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That's life.
One of my dad's favorite lines when I questioned things or lodged a complaint.
It always seemed to me there was more to it than that.
And now that I am grown,
I know I was on the right road,
the one that leads to the place where all the veins meet.
it can even be unfair.
Yet I prefer to view it as a bittersweet symphony,
a long and intricate composition of sights, sounds, events, emotions,
all blending seamlessly to create something pleasurable,
even if it is tinged with occasional unpleasantries.
That's life is a cop-out,
a way to shirk responsibility for your own fate.
Life isn't arbitrary.
It requires careful thought, reason, principles.
That's life is fool's gold,
meant to trick the untrained eye into accepting a narrow world view.
If you must sum up life, don't leave it at that.